Lamar Odom Opens Up About Drug Addiction In The Players’ Tribune (Must Read)
“I never wanted to touch anything stronger than marijuana. I definitely never touched cocaine. I actually looked down on it.”
It’s been almost two years since Lamar Odom overdosed on cocaine at the Love Ranch, a brothel in Crystal, Nevada. On October 13, 2015, the 37 year old former NBA player was transported to a Las Vegas hospital, where he was placed on life support after falling into a coma. Odom suffered 12 strokes, 2 heart attacks, and kidney failure.
After making a full recovery, with the help of his ex-wife, Khloe Kardashian, Odom is finally ready to open up about his near death experience in an article for The Players’ Tribune entitled “Done In The Dark.”
Odom starts off describing how frightened he was when he woke up in the hospital, “When I woke up in the hospital room in Nevada, I couldn’t move. I couldn’t talk. I was trapped inside my own body. My throat hurt like hell. I looked down and I had all these tubes coming out of my mouth. So I panicked.”
“I started trying to pull them out, but I couldn’t because my hands were so weak. The nurses came running in to stop me. You ever had a really bad dream, where you’re trying to run away from a monster or some shit, and you just can’t run? Your legs don’t work like they should, and the monster is coming right behind you, and it’s like you’re in slow motion. That’s what it felt like.”
Around the time Odom was hospitalized, he he had fallen deep into his cocaine addiction, “At that point in my life, I was doing coke every day. Pretty much every second of free time that I had, I was doing coke. I couldn’t control it. I didn’t want to control it.”
He later admitted to hitting rock bottom one day when Kardashian walked in on him and a woman sniffing coke in a hotel room, “One of the darkest places I’ve ever been was when I was in a motel room, getting high with this chick, and my wife (at the time) walked in. That probably was like rock bottom. First of all I was in a motel. A motel.”
“I’m a millionaire. I’d made it out of Jamaica, Queens, and won two NBA titles. And I’m in a motel, with some random person, doing coke. But I just wanted to get high with this girl, and I had no other place to go. I couldn’t take her home. You know, I was being a scumbag. Nothing else I got for that. No excuses. No bullshit. That’s just the truth.”
Odom is now living a sober life, but says each and every day is a struggle, “I’m sober now. But it’s an everyday struggle. I have an addiction. I’ll always have an addiction. It never goes away. I mean, I want to get high right now. But I know that I can’t if I want to be here for my children.”
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